I’M HERE! NOW WHAT?

So . . . I did it! I got here! I doggie paddled and crawled my way over here. It took a lot of work and many years. It took a lot of perseverance and much prayer. It took a lot of learning and being uncomfortable. Most importantly, it took a lot of faith.

I wasn’t 100% sure I even wanted to actually come here. I was so comfortable where I was. I just wanted to continue to roll around in the mess that was me. I was safe there. I wore that comfortableness like an old pair of worn shoes. But, I’m glad I didn’t stay there. I’m glad I followed the path set before me. I’m happy I stepped in the footprints laid out for me. I’m ecstatic I connected the dots that were drawn for me. And after some near drownings, I made it! I’m here! I’m free of drama. I’m free of energy stealing souls. I’m free! So . . . now what?

Humph . . . a whole hella lot, that’s what. Now that I’m here, I have to be uncomfortable for a while. I have to make new acquaintances and gel with different personalities. I have to add onto what I already know and figure out what I don’t know. I have to rebuild my confidence while treading unknown territory. I kinda have to doggie paddle all over again until my uncomfortableness wanes and I am once again comfortable. After all, every elevation requires periods of discomfort.

I’m guessing that in order to reach those heights He has planned for me, this won’t be my last elevation. There will be ongoing seasons of uncomfortableness. And every now and then I’ll have to doggie paddle my way through some things and figure some things out. And whenever I get comfortable all over again, He will move me. He will quietly nudge me forward. He will draw more dots, and create more paths, and He will make new footprints for me to follow. And with each new level, new relationships will form and I’ll have to learn new lessons and try some new things.

Whether I want to or not.

He’s just not going to let me be. He knows my potential more than I do. He knows what I’m capable of more than I do. And He knows who He wants in my life more than I ever will. So, nope. He’s not just going to let me settle, no matter how much I want to. He’s not just going to let me exist . . . on my couch . . . watching Hallmark movies and eating potato chips, though He knows how much I would love to. And He’s not going to allow me to ever lay in the mess that was me, ever in life again.

So, now what?

Welp, I’ll guess I’ll press forward, now that I’m here. I’ll learn all I can, over here. I’ll do all I can do, while I’m here. I’ll meet everyone I should, since I’m here. And I’ll become all He wants me to be . . . here. Until it’s time for me to move . . . over there. That’s what.