When did it all get so complicated? Everything. Everyone. All of it? WHY does it have to be SO feezing complicated? EVERYTHING? I mean E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. I know life is deep. But really . . . does it really NEED to be THIS friggin’ deep. Like a dark, smelly cesspool? Like muddy, sludge thick? Knotty and wild like my hair when I haven’t washed it for two weeks, thick? I swear I’m so over it. So ova it you have no idea.
I don’t think humanity was meant to be this daggone complicated. Weren’t we supposed to be all walking around naked in a garden years and years ago? How the heck did things get so out of control? From the beginning of time, things just repeat itself and repeat itself and repeat itself. Except now we have so much technology that all the crap is on a much a larger scale. It sucks.
Everything is magnified and amplified a zillion fold. Everyone wants everything and everyone. And everyone wants their own way. It’s all so damn complicated. Taxes, health care, education, jobs, laws, rules, regulations, nutrition, security, neighbors, friends, relationships, co workers, marriages, schools, opinions, mortgages, treatments for illnesses, airports, traffic, health insurance, car insurance . . . everything. How did it all get so far and out of hand. Everything has a policy and a rule and a law. Everyone knows what’s best for everyone else.
Did I grow up? Is that why I think everything is a thing compounded a million fold? Was I once so young and carefree that all of these things didn’t really matter AS much back when. And now that I’m older, I see like all other adults see . . . through a magnifying glass? Is this why everything and everyone is so LARGE? So HUGE? Every issue is an issue with so many sides and facets and twists and turns and solutions and opinions and drama?
My brain hurts on a regular. I swear I don’t know what to do about most things. I start an application for something or begin a process to plan a light hearted other thing and then it all goes so out of control. This step leads to another step which leads to another tab to fill something out somewhere else, which leads to a phone call to clarify what I thought I just completed.
I don’t need a manual to life. I need a strong cup of come to Jesus. I need peace and quiet. I need a eutopia. I’m not so sure I’ll find that here on earth. So I guess while I’m here, I’ll strive for Heaven on earth. I’ll strive to keep my wits and my peace about me while everything is zooming around me at high speeds. I’ll go to the beach, sit by a lake, walk in the park, laugh with family and friends, and pray. I’ll pray for our world and every, single, everything and everyone. I’ll block out all the crap, try to have some kind of fun, and keep it moving. I’ll keep on keepin’ one while I pray. For everything and everyone.
