God is not a dictator. He gave us all free will. Why He did that I do not know. There are times when I just want to be told what to do, how to think, and what to say. I mean, free will is a wonderful gift but it sorta interferes with my direct reception of what God wants me to do. Free will slices through my wifi signal with the Most High and I can’t hear what He is telling me to do. That’s when He starts to yell, subtly at first and then BOOM! Right in my face. Has that ever happened to you? You’re just going about your life, minding your own business, carrying out the plans you made for yourself and then all hell breaks loose. Sucks huh?
For instance, the man I grew up with proposed to me on one knee after being together for ten years and one child later. From the time we eloped and didn’t have the grand wedding I’d always wanted, I should have known that my wifi signal to Heaven was weak. Why didn’t I hold out for the wedding of my dreams? Why did I agree to elope with his friends and have a double wedding ceremony? I didn’t even know them that well. It didn’t feel right. It didn’t sit right. It probably wasn’t right but I did it. Why? Because I loved him. Who needed a big old wedding with a big poofy wedding dress and all of my family and friends there anyway? After all, that money could be better spent on a down payment for our first house. All we needed was love right? Ugh.
