So you know that free will I’ve talked about? The free will that was gifted to all of us since the beginning of time? The free will that I sometimes really don’t want because I just want to be told by God what to do and when to do it? Yea THAT free will. I notice that I tend to use that gift a lot. My free will gets a lot of use. No need for regifting here because I use it and reuse it and I wear it out. Sometimes I want to return my free will for a full refund. Unfortunately God didn’t give me a gift receipt.
My free will gets me things fast. I want a new car. Boom! I’m at the car dealer. I want a new job. Boom! I quit my current job and jump into another one. I want a new man. Boom! The first dude to smile my way makes me melt. My free will and I have no patience. Looks good, somewhat affordable, kind, better than the last model I had, then I’m all in. What I forget is that I have to seek guidance. I have to ask the questions. I have to think about my choice and if it is beneficial to me. Is this newer model going to break down on me. Is this a lemon in disguise? A counterfeit? A healed over wound that’s still open underneath?
I can’t predict the future. I can only make choices that I THINK are best for me. But I have to remember that I have an advisor. Nope it’s not my friend who who gives really good advice. It’s not my parents who have been through it all. It’s not a co worker who has inside knowledge on the future of our company. It’s not Web MD or Google. It’s God. He has patience and waits on me. As I make decisions without praying for guidance, He waits for me to see Him. To call on Him. To rely on Him. He waits for me to recognize Him in every little detail of my life. So why can’t I be patient and wait on Him to move in my life? After all, He waited for me to know Him. Now I must wait. And I’m pretty sure that His way will be way better than my way. Screw daggone free will!
