Peace. When I think of peace I think of a drama free life with no mishaps or missteps. Just calm, still waters bordering a clean, pristine beach, with clear blue skies and no clouds in site. I see myself relaxing on powder white sand gazing out at the horizon. That’s what I see when I think of peace.
Peace is me standing still while everything torrential and haphazard churns and swirls around me. I literally see myself standing still, feet firmly planted, not wavering at all, while dark grey storms spin out of control all around me. I do not move. I do not panic. I am still. Not even hurricane force winds can topple me. I am peace.
I have this harmonious nature now because I realize that many things are out of my control and are in God’s hands. I get that when I leave this earth, all of the things that potentially can shatter my peace and take me out of my peace zone, cannot come with me. My job. My money. My family. My bills. None of them can go with me when I’m done on this here earth. None.
So I work hard to make sure my peace does not falter. It can’t. My sanity depends on me maintaining a somewhat calm outlook in all areas of my life. Even if a person or event comes along and stands right next to me with the intent to shake me up and out of my tranquility, I MUST stand still. I must be the catalyst that makes things happen while I remain a constant source of peace. I have to.
Some say my calm demeanor is wussy, non-caring, and weak. I say my calm demeanor saves me from the drama I seek to avoid. A few say I think life is so rosey and great. I say the serenity I feel calms my soul and helps me to save my energy which would be stolen from me otherwise. A handful want me to get heated and pissed when wrongs are done to me. Nah. No need. We all know who’s always watching and who will take care of those wrong doers in time.
I’m not a doormat and I don’t let folks walk all over me. My stillness is not easy. I slip. I’m human and I stumble. But as time goes by I regroup faster than I used to and reclaim my peace with the quickness. I do this because I know what’s waiting for me when He decides it is my turn to go. Peace.
