WAY OVER THERE

You get it right? I love you. I love you lots and lots. But, you stay way over there. I’ll just love you from here.

I love you. I don’t want any harm to come to you. But I really don’t like you. Not really. And I can’t. I just can’t. You drain my energy. You suck my lifeforce from my very core. You pretty much bleed me dry. I can only do so much and help so much. I can only listen so much and check up on you so much and take so much. You deplete me. My energy is waning. I’ve got no more to give. No more is left in me. I’m tired. So very tired. So, I’m just gonna stay right here . . . and you? You stay way over there. I’ll just love you from afar.

Come on. You know you want to say it. You feel it too. Some folks and some things and some situations can just really turn our mental status upside down. I like my mental status. Especially when it’s intact . . . and right side up. I really do. So, I sorta can’t afford to have it turned upside down.

I’ve worked a long time at feelin better. Doing better. Moving on. So, you sorta can’t just pop up, when you want, and throw me off my axis . . . off my calm headspace. My peaceful mindframe . . . whenever you want. You sorta can’t jump in and out of my psyche whenever you feel like it. Whenever it’s convenient for you to do so. Without a glance at what that might do to me. You kinda can’t bring your negative energy around my tranquil vibe. It’s not warranted. Or welcomed. Nor wanted.

So, suck as you might, I’m not gonna curse you. Fight you. Disrespect you. Wish bad on you. I’m not gonna hide from you. Avoid you. Be scared of you. What I am gonna do for you, is pray for you. A lot. I think you kinda need it.

So when you think of coming around and invading my soul, don’t. When your new life gets tired and you see the grass is hella grayer than greener, don’t slide my way. Don’t put my name in your mouth. Don’t think about me. Don’t plot against me. Don’t expect to get a rise out of me. Just pretend that because you’re way over there, and I’m way over here, this is what He wanted and how it’s meant to be.

No matter how much you torment me, I’ll just love you from afar.